pain.

i dunno what to say...sometimes i jus feel like shouting out loud...but there's no one tat hear my scream...sometimes i jus feel so helpless...i'm jus so scared...jus so damn it scared...i tot everything was fine....i tot....i tot...


seating by the beach calling out to you....
sitting by my window calling out to you...

sometimes ignorance is bliss...but then again...it's a sad kind of bliss..ironic?


y is the world such a grey area?

no mood

no mood to blog.7 words-miss her,need her,loads loads loads.



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frames & bus

went for a walk and some food with alton,vanessa and crystal after school...then i pop by the shop to check out the frame...hmm...the shop weird weird one.one uncle tell me got the frame i want and the other tell me dun hav...one i ask everything also dun hav...the other one i ask him he say everything also have...hmm...question mark?whcih one to believe..sian lor...after tat i went to take bus 10...kan tu lan..waited for so long,bus after bus passed...all the buses cept for bus 10...bus 31 even came 4 times!after wat seemed like light years the bus finally arrived...but it was a puny single deck tat was damn it full of people.bo pian...came home then went over to paul's house for more filming of magic...came home beat.

praise lord.someone interested in my guitar...sent pic to him...hope he buys it...and hope no one buys the frame before me! nb if not i sure kan sian lor...got other frames tat are about the same...but the design and colour jus not my preference la

tennis=boring

today played tennis as usual during pe....kan sian lor...i dun really take a fancy to tennis...but bo pian...part of the stupid pe programme...learn new skills blah blah...aiya badmintion nicer...kaoz the days are flying by..."bu zhi bu jue" aug is jus round the corner...this fri will be damn cock up...got odac,got interfac netball and badmintion almost all at the same time...split myself into 3??hmm...not safe.better not do.

i found the frame i want...better buy fast if not sold out....but no $$ how?got job to intro?odd jobs also can.

to all my teachers: lim bei dun sleep in class nowadays le...(cept for a few lessons...but trying) so @ yr end if i borderline cant promote, put in a few gd words for me k?say i try hard.thks lots.

Bike

been a freaking long time since i updated.lots have happened since...well, lets start with kit's bike.he lost it....suey lor...it was barely a few min into the shop and someone jus mounted his bike and made away with it...he gave a chase but in vain....haiz...then recently my class made it to the interfac netball comp semis...hehe we had great team work...then there's more and more work...must start doin...today took nafa...standing board jump,sit ups and sit & reach...all qualify for gold but my jump was kns la...then my 2.4 missed by 5 sec to qualify for gold...wth lor...dun care must retake!now left with pull ups and shuttle run...no confidence for pull up...now my mind whole day is on bikes....bikes nothing but bikes and where to get $$$ to buy the one i want....hmm i'm thinking of the GT Avalanche 2.0...i'll jus get the frame then buy the other parts separate.i got some of the parts already.i'm short of the frame,the 2 rims with hub,cassette,chain...i need $$$!help.someone.lol....any idea where to earn quick$$?thinking of selling my stuff but nothing much to sell...put my guitar up for auctions already.interested tell me.feeling stress sia...whole day not doin work but daydreaming...oh ya yest went over to paul's house to film tricks...managed to film a few but not much...haha...any kind soul willing to lend me $300?lol

there's lots of exco meeting...wth...sianz...plan this plan tat

anyone got good job offer?weekend job.abt$5/hr.or one time job also can...like survey or anything

need $

woke up late again...lol...since when was i up early anyway...bought lunch back from market...wth i forgot to tell the aunty i dun wan ikan bilis -_-" after lunch i finally tried to pack up my room(its still in quite a mess now) when i felt that the condition was better than before i stopped and went grandmums....must commend grandmum's cooking...nice...hahaz...came home rather late...also dunno wat i doin @ grandmum's...watched last 15 min of tour de france...wahahaha armstrong still retains the yellow...hope he wins the tour...dun feel like sleeping now...but scared tmr i feel tired in sch again...lol

i'm broke
i need $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
i know money is not everything...but sometimes when u dun hav money,u jus cant get wat u want...

tmr they are showing david blaine:street magic on ch 5 @ 10.30pm...i watched it tons of times already...those interested watch it tmr...his tricks can catch one...try figuring them out...wahahaha

slack.

woke up @ 8 then slept again till 11+....-_-" i know...tsk tsk...then bought lunch and read today's papers...after tat fiddled round with comp before goin for a short ride...discovered a route! it leads from my house all the way to bedok south sec.hehe...means if i wanna get there i dun hav to detour le...from my house to there takes only less than 3 min if i go fast...somemore got slope...fun...wahahaha...this also means i can get to simpang for prata faster...lolx...came home and played with comp again...then ate dinner...and played with comp AGAIN...lolx

hmm...got a sudden urge to film all my tricks down...anyone got a video cam?

somehow the d/l speed of my ares is getting slower...why?and i am running out of hard disk space...sianzzz

must show magic more often to prac...lol anyone interested i'll be glad to entertain u =)

fitness

today played soccer in sch for awhile after sch...and then came home and took my bike out for a ride...found out tat my fitness isnt as good as before...now i feel tired and out of breath after a short exercise...and during p.e when we're asked to run,jus feel like i cant run like before...hmm...getting fatter?training lesser?eating too much?hahaz...all these due to lazy me. sian lor...hope this wont cont'd...nafa is coming up and i wanna get gold...dun think i can but will try my best anyway...tmr is chem spa...damn it my calculations sure mati de...

hmm..thks to those who consoled me.

i need a paying survey.

Handing over

not in pretty much of a gd mood.so if i offend anyone now or tmr in sch.sorry.

today was the handing over ceremony for odac.and they revealed the posts for exco too.k i didnt got wat i wanted.he got it.sigh.and of all depart they put me incharge of pioneering.so now i'm the new pioneering chief...i dun like it.sigh.well, at least it's rather slack...i'm unhappy/disappointed but no choice wats chosen and done is done.cant change anything now.spa coming up and i haven been doin my wk.wth...no mood for anything now la...jus wanna slp,slack around and do nothing.dun feel like blogging much.

ciaoz.

$$$ crisis.

sea carnival

yest was the annual sea carnival...wahahaha...hong boon and me managed to clinch a silver in the mens doubles kayaking...we tot we would come in one of the last few but surprisingly we did rather well,miss out the gold by a couple of sec...nvm nxt yr will get gold de...nice rowing hb =) my class also qualified for the final of the inter CG dragonboat race budden didnt manage to win anything...good job anyway...once again,nxt yr we'll win something...hahaz...train hard...hmm...actually we were @ disadvantage cos we started behind others and we were steered slightly off course by our dearest coxan...sian half...nvm la...over le...after the carnival we went national stadium for a shower before goin to KFC for dinner...guys and girls(cept wesley)we then discovered that the girl also dun like him...suddenly yhe class became so united =D the meal was wonderful cos everyone talked cock...the whole of yest was fun!finish meal le we took bus home...all took 12..hahaz...i fell ZzZ on the bus...felt darn tired...went home zZzZ

today yap took over leow's lesson...sian lor...argh see her face i sian 0.5..hear her voice even worst..i tried not to look @ her...she ask me Qns i also cant be bothered to ans...gp became such a bore again...ms leow come back quickly...lolx...then there was aihoon...she damn attitude la...wth...dun like her lessons and her...kan sian also...yap and aihoon lesson=alex sian and sleepy...kept dozing off during their lesson...bleahz.cant stand them.then ms yap today said she couldnt stand "mo xiao ling"patrica mok...say she look @ her wanna puke...then i looked @ ms yap found tat she look like patrica mok...wanted to say"cher dun look in the mirror or you'll puke" but tot better not...hahaz...after sch went Mac with class guys for lunch...after tat came home read today's papers and fell zZzZz till 9pm!!waste time only lor...

spin

woke up late again...dotz.took my bike for a spin in the evening @ ecp....wa the air there damn shiok cos rain jus ended...macham aircon...lolx...hm...cycled for about an hr before heading home...my stem pos feels alright...dunno why yq say cock =S siao one...nvm...haha...watch the charity show then switched to tour de france...sian 0.5...watch awhile dozed off le...must be the heavy dinner...woke up found it was already 12am...fiddled round with my comp till now...sian la...go slp le...if not tmr in sch tired...hahaz...tmr is sea carnival...confirm wont win de...but jus try my best lor

Shiok!

yest nite went ecp cycling and skating with hb,ah boy,big small gab,roy and hubert.rode there and met them @6....sian lor...drizzling...but we still rode on...went bike shop to rent bikes for hubert and roy...then we set off...small gab, hb and ah boy skated...the rest were on bikes...haha we tot hubert how to cycle...teach all the way from the mac area to the lagoon hawker center there he still couldnt get it...nvm we didnt give up...wahahahahad dinner @ the lagoon hwaker...somehow the food yest was nicer than usual...lolx...then we rode all the way back to the mac area to return bike....hubert finally magaged to learn le!hahaz...kao...renting the bike cheap lor...$6 ride till we shaung...then we went to 7-11 buy drink then go mac sit down eat ice cream...slack le we took a slow walk/ride back to the hawker center there for another drink before heading home....haha..yest nite was fun but it was only an outing for guys...hmm...i hope tat there will be an outing soon where the whole class can go...like tat the guys and girls can mix...then the class can be more united =)

today went to makan dinner with parents...wahahaha...long time nv like tat le...nice...hmm i modified my stem pos....think it's more effective now?i made it to take after the handle of a road bike

i'm falling in love with my bike again...hahaz(i still wish for a better bike though)

high score

went bowling yest with kx, alton & bush..wahaha...team bv training...lady lucky must be smiling at me...played 4 games altogether and had my best bowling session ever...hehe...got 147 for my warmup game...then my scores shot up to 200 for my second game....5 strikes and a couple of spares in a row saw my 3rd game shooting up to 221...beating my previous high game of 212...hmmz....4th game wasnt so gd...guess abit tired le ba...got a decent 151...wasted ar 1st and last game...hahaz...hmm hope tpjc open can play like that =P

got back phy paper today.k.dun want to mention it.barely got 2 digits.sigh...mr liew then kept smiling at me =S wth lor....after school went pasta mania with crystal,vanessa and gen for lunch...after tat bought new headphone...ex sia...60+..wallet hole big le la....

tmr after sch still got dialogue.sianz.hm wk not done.

quick day

woke up.wentgrandmum house.slack use comp watch tv and eat.came home.ZzZz

armstrong got 2nd in 1st stage of tour de france..hope he wins!

over

been quite a while since i last blogged...haha...lazy ar...
common test came and went.it was horrible...nv done a worst exam then this...lolx...at least it lasted only 3 days.went to watch war of the worlds on wed.hmm....wasnt too bad...quite nice esp the special effects...then yest went kbox with crystal and vanessa....haha after tat we wanted to go play pool but was in sch u so went vanessa house to change...budden when we got back to the place they told us half u also cannot...sian loh...bo pian...we went home to change before meeting up @ tamp for pool again...after that they went PS walk walk while i went with axn imh gaps and adeline to celebrate ian's bday @ pizza hutz....yum!after the meal i sent crystal home before goin home....today she came over my house in the afternoon to do some work...then we went TM to watch initial d...also nice...kaoz the popcorn damn ex lor...sian 0.5...they should sell cheaper popcorn...haha


i want to bike....sian...today met yq,roy and hb for dinner @85...before tat took bike to service but too late shop closing the uncle told me to go back tomorrow

would be better if i can get a gd new bike..wahahaha


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