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i'm mad. M.A.D

i'm a sadist, i'm evil, i'm crazy, i'm gothic.

maybe i jus expect too much and somethings that mean little to others but mean lots to me?
i'm beginning to doubt everything.
even myself.

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you know what's one thing i hate the most?

my friend(s) betraying me.

especially those closer ones.

have you ever felt a feeling that makes you feel so alien to this world...this kind of feeling makes you dunno what to do...dunno who to talk to...dunno who to trust...dunno where to go...this kind of feeling...makes you doubt everything...then again they say feelings go away with time...i hope that's true...

maybe i'm jus thinking too much..maybe i'm jus over reacting..maybe it's all my fault..

isst true that nothing last forever?
isst true that you can never find people whom you can trust everything to?

mood swings.

slept thru the whole day...always sleeping again...sigh.had exco meeting after school...nordin was pissed with us for not attending yest...heck la...he then brief us about the overseas trip...hmm...i feel that the trip ar...must like maybe put a small group of maybe 4 or 5 into the jungle...then ask us to get out using whatever we have...like that then fun ma...got that survivor factor...k...i'm sounding sadist...but serious la...tat would then consider a adventure....k i'm a sadist...nordin then said that he would take us treking at bukit timah for training...say what he will bring us a route none of us ever gone before...say what will have to cut thru vegetation...that reminded me of that time when i went with kit to cycle at bukit timah...we strayed from the proper path...wounded up into the forest where there was no proper path...we had nothing but our bikes with us...there was totally no road la...we had to heck thru thick vegetation to get out...i dun think any trek that nordin's offering can be worst than that...

came home and wanted to go cycle...the 1st thing when i came out of the underpass i saw kx.surprised to see him...but he was like busy...so didnt wanted to bother him...wanted to start training tonite la...budden after cycling to nsrcc and back, lightning started to fill the sky...sensing a storm coming, cycled home lor...bo pian....sians....now monsoon season...wth la...like that train sai la...

chinese A lvl coming up...OP also...wat to do?i dunno.

getting easily irritated nowadays...whats wrong with me man...

zZzZz

went sentosa on sat!wahahaha...i nearly oversleep...actually i did oversleep...rushed down to meet the gang at harbourfront mac.it was nick's sweet 17...had loads of fun there playing volleyball,tanning,swimming,taking photos and......slacking!haha...mich,sher,nick,kx and me went 1st.ian and gaps joined us later...we had so much fun...even gaps was so sporting...he swam in jeans and shirt!wahahaha and we hauled everyone up onto a small floating platform...cool man...oh ya! the 7-11 hotdog is nice!lol...we left as darkness fell. showered and went cafe cartel for dinner...wth..ate so much bread tat when our orders came we were full liao... -_-" rite...haha...hope to go sentosa with s15 also...holidays maybe?wait and see lor...

sunday came and went.nothing much...went for pw session then ate dinner with parents before joining jamie and janice for badmintion.jamie's badmintion improved...haha

this weekend family dinner thingy is becoming a weekly thing.tats good =]

sians...missed out on this week's bowling session...sian sian sian...must go bowl with friends soon

today was my op...boring sia...had to seat there and listen after we presented. i was dozing off even before my turn...yes..its tat boring...so after the break roy and me decided to make our getaway...hope yappie didnt mind....haha...anyways met up with the guys for movie later in the afternoon-flightplan...nice movie..nice plot...haha...after tat most of the guys went home leaving jude,roy,eugene and me go play pu bor...the uncle at safra was as nice as ever and lent shirt to eugene who was in his school uni.russ and me then went to cut hair....

jean yip

the result,i dunno...i feel it's not so nice la...sianssssssssssssssss...wasted my hair...hope as it grows it will get nicer....haha

try not to laugh when u see my new hairdo.

farked up

dunno what's wrong with me today...feeling damn farked up...it's a pile up of everything maybe?dunno.

rushed pw this morning.got caught for hair.play bb in school.played soccer.conferenced on phone.

angry with who?dunno also...maybe myself ba?

ah wat the fark la...sorry if i sound abit attitude here...think if i cont'd like tat i'm gonna lose all my friends....DUNNO LA

think i goin crazy liao

and oh ya...i'm sick...as in real sick.flu,cough and sorethroat is making me feel weak.cant start training.

rayner's nick:
to beat the pros....you must first get thrashed by others time and again

i agree with tat totally.

not feeling good

came home @ 4+ am...was talking...damn tired....went zZz at 5 am...woke up at 1.30 to flu and sorethroat...had to go do pw....wth....spent the whole day @ gab's house...man...can D.I.E man...came home feeling not so well...budden still went to join e rest for soccer...play till about 9+ 10....by the time i came home i got a headache...which got worst as time pass...wth la....think i better rest...

now i got flu, sorethroat, headache...great.....so great....

moderation cofirmed.

sat-
went bowling with dad and his friends.played 6 games.average 172.improved from last week.=]
damn it la....the bowling competition i goin for odac overseas trip..cannot play...sian...one less trophy...lol

sun-
woke up like 3+ 4pm?lazy to go grandmum house...so stayed at home...slacked round...tried to learn guitar from net!hmm...working?abit ba...slowly slowly...

mon-
went sch.was told physics moderation was confirmed!and then i saw my final grades...yes!2 A pass and 2 AO pass! i'm promoted (99% confirmed) !!!!wooooooohooooooooooooooooo!CELEBRATION!haha...after school stll got the stupid pw...it's getting on my nerves...bleahz...after tat went with zhi hui to reg for the standard chartered marathon...but the bank close...we were like idiots tryin to fig out how to get inside the bank...budden actually it was close -_-" tio bang...nvm...then we went sports hall wanted to book badmintion court....was told cannot advance book on mon...only on tue....tio bang again...twice in a row...wth la!then went down all the way to funan...to repair camera...sians...by the time i got home i was so f ing tired...jus feel like lying down and not doin anything...wed faster come...no need to go school....sigh

PW SUCKS.USELESS PIECE OF SHIT.TIME WASTAGE KING.

cant wait for pw and chinese AO to be over..........
cant wait for chalet and sentosa to come......
cant wait for overseas trip and the competition to come.....
cant wait to be rich................................................................................. -_-"

class outing

physics is moderated!or is it?dunno...just heard rumours tat 9 marks are being added to our current scores...if like tat...then i pass liao!then i promote liao!!!!!!woooohooooooooooo!

tat is if they moderate la........................

results aside...everything will be revealed nxt thur....

went cycling with class guys today...went ecp...quite fun...haha...1st time they all cycle sia...woOt...even kah chou went!lol...cycled here and there...then went 85 to makan...dunno y but i ate the nasi lemak and a bowl of ah balling then i feeling damn damn damn full already...sians...recently i've been feeling that i have shortage of time...so little time...so many things to do...have to time manage liao....lazy la...goin for bowling with dad and his friends again tmr...think it's gonna be a weekly thingy liao...haha...good good...free games...got transport somemore...why not =P

i miss that feeling...

it's impossible to have the best of both worlds....why?

results

the results are back...past two days in school is nothing but collection of results...(except for soccer and badmintion today)

my results are great.GREAT.so great that i dunno if i can promote

F.O.E.
with passes for both gp and chinese....

will i make it thru?promote straight?or conditionally?if conditionally have to see parents...wth...if really so then i m so SCREWED....argh....wat to do...nxt thur all will be revealed...pray and pray and pray...that i will promote straight...and all my friends too will promote with me...

this holiday i'm gonna train,play games,go out,do lotsa sports and study.yes.you heard it.i'm gonna try to study...well...alittle here and there will add up to alot rite?hope so.

I HATE PW

it over

this blog dead for a while ar...lol...no time to update...now it's revived!wahaha

IT'S OVER!PROMOS ARE OVER!

so am i...

the papers were horrible...chem and phy confirm buang.now counting on maths already...sighs...really pray that i can promote...ahhhhh....

went bowling in the afternoon with dad and few of his friends...been a damn long time since i last bowled..only av of 160...ok la...competition coming up...better train....lol...no $$$
after that i came home took my bike and went cycling...ecp got alot of chio bu..but all got bf liao...lol...sianssss halfff...rayner joined me at about 7+...cycled up and down east coast...went to find alson @ the motor racing car shop...he working there...he has his chopper with him...cycled with him, rayner and another friend to the jetty...saw a gal with avalanche 3.0...cool man...rarely see girls with bikes...not to mention avalanche...but didnt manage to get a closer look...pity she wasnt cycling...if not can tail...wahaha...we chilled there till about 11+ before heading back to 168 for drinks...then i went to borrow ff8 from jamie and took back my ps from paul...i'm gonna play ff8 again!

saw paul playing ff7.fantastic graphics...really poles apart from what's coming out on ps3...they better release it on xbox also

i'm gonna enjoy this 3 days before wed man...i'm gonna cry on wed and thur.
i dun wanna retain...PROMOTE ME DAMN IT.please.

would i ever find someone with the same amount of passion for bikes as me?
would i ever find some girl with the same amount of passion for bikes as me?

k.chiong chiong chiong!