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i'm mad. M.A.D

i'm a sadist, i'm evil, i'm crazy, i'm gothic.

maybe i jus expect too much and somethings that mean little to others but mean lots to me?
i'm beginning to doubt everything.
even myself.

..

you know what's one thing i hate the most?

my friend(s) betraying me.

especially those closer ones.

have you ever felt a feeling that makes you feel so alien to this world...this kind of feeling makes you dunno what to do...dunno who to talk to...dunno who to trust...dunno where to go...this kind of feeling...makes you doubt everything...then again they say feelings go away with time...i hope that's true...

maybe i'm jus thinking too much..maybe i'm jus over reacting..maybe it's all my fault..

isst true that nothing last forever?
isst true that you can never find people whom you can trust everything to?

mood swings.

slept thru the whole day...always sleeping again...sigh.had exco meeting after school...nordin was pissed with us for not attending yest...heck la...he then brief us about the overseas trip...hmm...i feel that the trip ar...must like maybe put a small group of maybe 4 or 5 into the jungle...then ask us to get out using whatever we have...like that then fun ma...got that survivor factor...k...i'm sounding sadist...but serious la...tat would then consider a adventure....k i'm a sadist...nordin then said that he would take us treking at bukit timah for training...say what he will bring us a route none of us ever gone before...say what will have to cut thru vegetation...that reminded me of that time when i went with kit to cycle at bukit timah...we strayed from the proper path...wounded up into the forest where there was no proper path...we had nothing but our bikes with us...there was totally no road la...we had to heck thru thick vegetation to get out...i dun think any trek that nordin's offering can be worst than that...

came home and wanted to go cycle...the 1st thing when i came out of the underpass i saw kx.surprised to see him...but he was like busy...so didnt wanted to bother him...wanted to start training tonite la...budden after cycling to nsrcc and back, lightning started to fill the sky...sensing a storm coming, cycled home lor...bo pian....sians....now monsoon season...wth la...like that train sai la...

chinese A lvl coming up...OP also...wat to do?i dunno.

getting easily irritated nowadays...whats wrong with me man...

zZzZz

went sentosa on sat!wahahaha...i nearly oversleep...actually i did oversleep...rushed down to meet the gang at harbourfront mac.it was nick's sweet 17...had loads of fun there playing volleyball,tanning,swimming,taking photos and......slacking!haha...mich,sher,nick,kx and me went 1st.ian and gaps joined us later...we had so much fun...even gaps was so sporting...he swam in jeans and shirt!wahahaha and we hauled everyone up onto a small floating platform...cool man...oh ya! the 7-11 hotdog is nice!lol...we left as darkness fell. showered and went cafe cartel for dinner...wth..ate so much bread tat when our orders came we were full liao... -_-" rite...haha...hope to go sentosa with s15 also...holidays maybe?wait and see lor...

sunday came and went.nothing much...went for pw session then ate dinner with parents before joining jamie and janice for badmintion.jamie's badmintion improved...haha

this weekend family dinner thingy is becoming a weekly thing.tats good =]

sians...missed out on this week's bowling session...sian sian sian...must go bowl with friends soon

today was my op...boring sia...had to seat there and listen after we presented. i was dozing off even before my turn...yes..its tat boring...so after the break roy and me decided to make our getaway...hope yappie didnt mind....haha...anyways met up with the guys for movie later in the afternoon-flightplan...nice movie..nice plot...haha...after tat most of the guys went home leaving jude,roy,eugene and me go play pu bor...the uncle at safra was as nice as ever and lent shirt to eugene who was in his school uni.russ and me then went to cut hair....

jean yip

the result,i dunno...i feel it's not so nice la...sianssssssssssssssss...wasted my hair...hope as it grows it will get nicer....haha

try not to laugh when u see my new hairdo.

farked up

dunno what's wrong with me today...feeling damn farked up...it's a pile up of everything maybe?dunno.

rushed pw this morning.got caught for hair.play bb in school.played soccer.conferenced on phone.

angry with who?dunno also...maybe myself ba?

ah wat the fark la...sorry if i sound abit attitude here...think if i cont'd like tat i'm gonna lose all my friends....DUNNO LA

think i goin crazy liao

and oh ya...i'm sick...as in real sick.flu,cough and sorethroat is making me feel weak.cant start training.

rayner's nick:
to beat the pros....you must first get thrashed by others time and again

i agree with tat totally.

not feeling good

came home @ 4+ am...was talking...damn tired....went zZz at 5 am...woke up at 1.30 to flu and sorethroat...had to go do pw....wth....spent the whole day @ gab's house...man...can D.I.E man...came home feeling not so well...budden still went to join e rest for soccer...play till about 9+ 10....by the time i came home i got a headache...which got worst as time pass...wth la....think i better rest...

now i got flu, sorethroat, headache...great.....so great....

moderation cofirmed.

sat-
went bowling with dad and his friends.played 6 games.average 172.improved from last week.=]
damn it la....the bowling competition i goin for odac overseas trip..cannot play...sian...one less trophy...lol

sun-
woke up like 3+ 4pm?lazy to go grandmum house...so stayed at home...slacked round...tried to learn guitar from net!hmm...working?abit ba...slowly slowly...

mon-
went sch.was told physics moderation was confirmed!and then i saw my final grades...yes!2 A pass and 2 AO pass! i'm promoted (99% confirmed) !!!!wooooooohooooooooooooooooo!CELEBRATION!haha...after school stll got the stupid pw...it's getting on my nerves...bleahz...after tat went with zhi hui to reg for the standard chartered marathon...but the bank close...we were like idiots tryin to fig out how to get inside the bank...budden actually it was close -_-" tio bang...nvm...then we went sports hall wanted to book badmintion court....was told cannot advance book on mon...only on tue....tio bang again...twice in a row...wth la!then went down all the way to funan...to repair camera...sians...by the time i got home i was so f ing tired...jus feel like lying down and not doin anything...wed faster come...no need to go school....sigh

PW SUCKS.USELESS PIECE OF SHIT.TIME WASTAGE KING.

cant wait for pw and chinese AO to be over..........
cant wait for chalet and sentosa to come......
cant wait for overseas trip and the competition to come.....
cant wait to be rich................................................................................. -_-"

class outing

physics is moderated!or is it?dunno...just heard rumours tat 9 marks are being added to our current scores...if like tat...then i pass liao!then i promote liao!!!!!!woooohooooooooooo!

tat is if they moderate la........................

results aside...everything will be revealed nxt thur....

went cycling with class guys today...went ecp...quite fun...haha...1st time they all cycle sia...woOt...even kah chou went!lol...cycled here and there...then went 85 to makan...dunno y but i ate the nasi lemak and a bowl of ah balling then i feeling damn damn damn full already...sians...recently i've been feeling that i have shortage of time...so little time...so many things to do...have to time manage liao....lazy la...goin for bowling with dad and his friends again tmr...think it's gonna be a weekly thingy liao...haha...good good...free games...got transport somemore...why not =P

i miss that feeling...

it's impossible to have the best of both worlds....why?

results

the results are back...past two days in school is nothing but collection of results...(except for soccer and badmintion today)

my results are great.GREAT.so great that i dunno if i can promote

F.O.E.
with passes for both gp and chinese....

will i make it thru?promote straight?or conditionally?if conditionally have to see parents...wth...if really so then i m so SCREWED....argh....wat to do...nxt thur all will be revealed...pray and pray and pray...that i will promote straight...and all my friends too will promote with me...

this holiday i'm gonna train,play games,go out,do lotsa sports and study.yes.you heard it.i'm gonna try to study...well...alittle here and there will add up to alot rite?hope so.

I HATE PW

it over

this blog dead for a while ar...lol...no time to update...now it's revived!wahaha

IT'S OVER!PROMOS ARE OVER!

so am i...

the papers were horrible...chem and phy confirm buang.now counting on maths already...sighs...really pray that i can promote...ahhhhh....

went bowling in the afternoon with dad and few of his friends...been a damn long time since i last bowled..only av of 160...ok la...competition coming up...better train....lol...no $$$
after that i came home took my bike and went cycling...ecp got alot of chio bu..but all got bf liao...lol...sianssss halfff...rayner joined me at about 7+...cycled up and down east coast...went to find alson @ the motor racing car shop...he working there...he has his chopper with him...cycled with him, rayner and another friend to the jetty...saw a gal with avalanche 3.0...cool man...rarely see girls with bikes...not to mention avalanche...but didnt manage to get a closer look...pity she wasnt cycling...if not can tail...wahaha...we chilled there till about 11+ before heading back to 168 for drinks...then i went to borrow ff8 from jamie and took back my ps from paul...i'm gonna play ff8 again!

saw paul playing ff7.fantastic graphics...really poles apart from what's coming out on ps3...they better release it on xbox also

i'm gonna enjoy this 3 days before wed man...i'm gonna cry on wed and thur.
i dun wanna retain...PROMOTE ME DAMN IT.please.

would i ever find someone with the same amount of passion for bikes as me?
would i ever find some girl with the same amount of passion for bikes as me?

k.chiong chiong chiong!

feeling @#$%!

the studying at airport was rather productive.

the cycling trip jus now was shiok..

cycling is a good way to meet friends...

cycling liberates me....

i kinda hoped i turned back jus now.....

i wish i have one more week......

i'm running out of time.......





u're beautiful








anyone knows where provides camera repair services?

no fear

jus came home from cycling...yea...alone...feel damn shiok la...but my timing got worst...sians....too long nv ride properly liao

these few days i nv blog...too tired and no time la...everyday gotta stay back...pw here...remedial there...sians lar!

something i gotta say...i dun like liew...his lesson make me lose interest in physics...i prefer ms lim...and mdm neo...how come the chem teachers seem to be like better than then physics teachers...sigh...no choice...maths is fun...when u know how to do and able to get the answers...wa...song la...i'm tryin to love my subjects =] oh ya...PW is jus a waste of time.grr

promos is nearing...i really hope i can concentrate on studies now.help me lord

=NO FEAR=

feel so tried...something wrong?headache since i came home...haiz.

went airport for lunch with ms peh today...and some of 4/1 people...yu shan,yang,val,lina,li shi,kx,bao yun,da zun,russell...and of course me...had lunch @ popeye...some how the food there is v filling...dunno why leh...haha...anyways...we had a great time chatting...i miss sec sch days man...not that life is not nice now...but sec sch days jus like...feeling is hard to describe...i miss everything...the times when we got scolded...when we slept together in lessons...goin for exams...failing test together...goin out after school...and not to forget the friends i got...esp those closer ones...still hang out with them now...sec sch friends jus seem better?and i dont regret entering a neighbourhood school...taught me and i'm sure my friends lots of things...another thing...npcc...haha...miss it also =( ...miss it all la...lotsa great memories back there...ahhhhhhhh....4/1 is a great class...great peeps.great teachers...sigh...heard some sad stories too la...haha...really hope to have another gathering soon...yr end?will be planning...jus wait peeps =]
after lunch went with val, russ and kx to meet tyng,mei shan and nick @ orchard...they wanted to get present for adeline...lol...after a while we zhao liao...leaving the girls there as they wanted to maken...kx,russ,nick and me went to kit's house to slack

kx got a new phone...k700i....the phone tat i use till dun want to use liao...haha...no la..JOKING...it's a good phone...treasure it...dun misuse it =X

a nite to remember

yest nite was wild.it all started out with an innocent trip to 85 for supper...starting no one wanted to go cept for kx and me...in the end dunno how come got Shaun Dennis Sim kai xiang Alex,russ and ah bush...we planned to meet there @ 11.00pm but ah bush was there 10.50 liao...wa lau...siao one...the rest of us went on bikes...had ou lua and bar chor mee there...sianzzz the ou lua order got mixed up and i got the plate with ou one...i dun wan...but still ate it la...eeks...haha...after tat all didnt wanted to go home...so we went to playground opp 85 there sit play play...fun man...laugh till peng la...haha...dunno how they go make it into a 'course'...wa lau...sick lor...then got people came down tell us they need to sleep..so we bo pian moved to another location...the fountain near the police center...sat there talk cock for about half an hour...then the place somehow got stinky and we all bth zhao...shaun then wanted to go home...he and his dota...by then was about 1.30am...so we pei him go home...on the way home near 58 market there we found a sibei sui place...a 2 storey hdb carpark...kan song la...the top is open air de...then macham like underground racing!!!the surrounding was so quiet...really like those races...haha...at first we did short sprints from one end to the other...the floor is KAN SMOOTH!damn shiok...then we decided to increase the distance and created a sprint route...took turn to go for time trails...lol...shaun didnt take part...he went home first
Timings:
me ---1 min 12 sec
kai xiang---1 min 14 sec
russell ---1 min 20 sec
dennis ---1 min 25 sec
ah bush ---*busted*

wa the feeling of racing there was damn song...haha...and then we struck 4D...you know why ah bush's timing is *busted*?
reason very simple...cos when he went down...we saw a car...wanted to shout to him to becareful...then we looked carefully...it's a police patrol car...WTF...then we heard it screeched to a halt and some police shouting for ah bush to stop...wa..we chua tio la!a few moments later 2 police officers came up and questioned us...they then told us to bring our bikes and our belongings down to lv 1 and took down our particulars...sian lor...we didnt know cannot cycle @ carpark....but nothing we could do...got one the face damn xia lan...wa...feel like guai lan him...but cannot ar...sigh...the police officers then told us to go home...by then was already 4.30am...we didnt want to go home yet so went nearby the cheers to purchase a couple of drinks...wa the person there also damn guai lan...wtf...feel like slapping him...why all the people on wee morning shifts are all so guai lan neh?tired?maybe...but i dun give a damn.we then moved on to the nearby coffeeshop to seat down talk cock till 6+am...then dennis had to go home...so gave him a lift home...there was only 4 left...xiang,bush,russ and me...we went east coast to see sun rise...ah bu 1st time cycle on road and cycle @ ecp..haha...he should come cycle with us more often....he not used to it ba...anyways...see sai sunrise ar!all was foggy and cloudy...no sun to see la!sian half...but the scene was still nice...went home @ about 7+am

came home fiddles with comp...packed stuff and got change and went out @ 11+ to sch for pw..stayed there till 5+...yes....tat late...sian la!then went 201 eat with them...came home dun really feel tat tired leh...one nite nv slp liao...got slp on bus la...abit only...but now starting to feel tired liao...should be crossing over to paul house later =X


STUPID PW.DUMB EOM.IRRITATING WR.

the day i flew

morning was maths...i think it was a TOTAL waste of time...was so damn freaking boring la...i think i prefer one to one teaching...lecture jus doesnt work when i'm not interested in the subject...sigh...after lecture went uncle louis with yq,lizard.hubert,hb,small gab and russ...we decided to meet @ 2 for cycling/skating @ east coast...haha...my 3rd day cycling liao...russ met me 1st...then we went east coast...they were not there la...2.30 liao...so we cycled to fort rd there...discovered a path across the overhead bridge...people rarely go there...and the road there is straight...figured tat it would be gd for racing...but it's only 0.8km...abit the short ar..sprints maybe la...haha...at about 2.45 we finally met them @ mac...we cycled about east coast...to jetty then to hawker center then to second jetty then to hawker again...lol...took lots of pics...wth...then i flew *bang* i was cycling behind with russ...the rest were infront...there was this guy in front of us...skater...he suddenly jus did a sharp turn...i wasnt expecting it...so i jammed down my brakes...and i jus flew...how nice...lucky my bike no major damage...or else i will not let the person off la...k...dun think anyone's at fault?i damaged yq's camera in the process...the memory card holder chipped...and the thing cant be closed properly now...sorry man yq...also collected a couple of scratches on my leg...and my bar ends were bent inwards la...argh....damn tat guy man...got lots of things i wanna change on my bike before it becomes my dream bike...lol...at about 8+ we went the coffeeshop besides mac for dinner...then big gab,russ me took the costal way home

mexican

today got l.e.s.s.o.n.s.first was phy followed by chem...i pon the chem...tot could faster go play badmintion..but ming song was delayed...sianzzz....when he finally came, we went tamp sports hall to play badmintion.veron.jamie.ming song.ah bush.me...zhi hui and zhe wei joined us later on....play from 12 till about 3+...we got one hour free...hahaha...after tat went s11 food court to eat and seat and talk cock....sit there till 6+7 sia...wa lau...dunno why sit there so long also...jus talk craps...then got kai xiang's call...he jio go cycle...so i on...went home got my bike and chiong out liao...as i was about to go towards the bayshore underpass...i kenna shocked...i was goin fast around a corner...then suddenly 2 bikes jus popped out...nearly couldnt break in time...almost bang into them...then i heard"knn chao cb!"and i look carefully...it was rayner and alvin!haha...speak of a small world...they goin somewhere...they said will join kx and me later...so i went to meet kx @ ecp first...we cycled till the end...then suddenly got 2 mats pass us...we bo liao...so decided to tail them...then they increased speed...so did i...then i bth jus chiong...after a while i couldnt see them behind me liao...then later met rayner @ around mac there...found out tat the 2 mats were actually his friends...didnt said hi to them...haha i abit the attitude ar...found out that one of their bikes was a cannondale...so wat man...still lost to me....stupid *toot*...i dun like their face. anyways kx rayner alvin & me cycled to jetty and jus fooled round there for awhile...wa kao...alvin's new bike is damn sat la...a chopper...lol...sit on it damn song...imported from usa la...wth...haha...after about half an hour alvin suggested making a move...so we moved to rayner's house...he brought down mexican beer for us...then we jus sat by the pool talk cock and drink...after tat i drove home...on my bike tat is.hmm.nv get caught for drink driving.lucky

i love natalie lam xia shu

T.I.R.E.D

wa pengz.so long nv blog liao...lazy and tired la...hahahahahahaha.....=_=" k i'm typing C.R.A.P
today actually wanted to study one...but hong boon jio go him house swim...then i tot why not..so long nv swim liaoz...wth la...stupid lizard morning 10am call me wake up liao...say wat go central buy shorts and eat breakfast...sianz...dragged myself out of bed...she damn lang fei la...eat carrot cake eat half way then dun want liao...like small gab sia!haha...something's fishy....anyways after tat went hong boon house...then yq and big gab came also...swam till about 4 big gab went home.lizard and hong boon went up his house...left yq and me there sun tanning...i fell asleep...woken up by the sound of a HORN....i immediately reco tat as yq's bike lor....stupid horn...lol...went up hong boon house to change...then saw jamie online...she say go cycling...i nothing to do anyways(bedsides studying) so i say anyting lor...she came by after i reached home to collect bike...i lent her my bmx...we went to the small road besides temasek there...where she learnt cycling...she nopt bad...fast learner...maybe great teacher?hahaha...kk...shallnt be bhb...anyways...after she managed to go straight and make turns,we decided it was enough for the day...so we dropped the bmx at my place and cycled on my avalanche to east coast for dinner...dinner was kenny rogers..wahahah...the cheese macroni taste as nice as ever...after tat cycled her to bedok jetty then to the big patch of sand infront of the sailing club before sending her home.tmr still got lessons.shucks.nvm...at least got badmintion to look forward to tomorrow...lol...now i jus feel like lying down with a drink and some food.lol

bike

today after sch ate lunch in canteen with ms wong and the whole class...haha...actually ms sharon wong also v crap de...full of crap...she got msn sia...haha...everyday online one....wa actually got teacher so on de...after leaving sch i chiong down to bugis to return the dvd...then pia all the way back home again to collect my frame and parts...then rushed down to the stadium shop...kit helped...wa lau...i looked like a retard on that urata bike la...low seat...got basket...now i know how it feels like to be on tat type of bike...somemore i had a wheel set to balance la...and my fork sticking out of my bag like some kind of *toot*...i'm nv gonna do tat again man....reached there the uncle told me to fix up wold need $150...cos need to purchase parts...sian lor...but i still agreed anyway...should be ready by fri...steady liao la

anyone wants to buy guitar?lol

quick yet long day

sch time past by in a flash...cos today i end @ 12.50...lol...after tat nothing to do...went to the shop order my frame...told to collect @ 6 onwards...so i went back sch...noone end lesson yet...so went library to do work but i soon found the environment too comfy...and fell zzZz...lol...woke up packed up my stuff and went downstairs look for them...met zhi hui, kx and ah bush...i opened odac room to play carom...bored la...shortly after i took out the carom...veron passed by...haha...she have tat "lost" look on her face...she always do...dunno why...haha...she stayed for awhile then zhao home le...zhi hui ah bush kx and me were supposed to stay back watch soccer match de...at about 5+ the match started...nothing interesting de...watch till v sian...about 6+ i felt kan tired...got headache...the match finally ended at about 7..with the yr 2s winning 2-1...after tat i went to the shop collect my frame...came home found tat the seat post not correct size..how nice...ah...then i spoilt my speedo the sensor...how now sia...parts like dun match leh...worried...wanna get it done asap....need $$$ wth

i hope thursday the survey still got space...but like no chance le ar...how could i forget got no sch on tat day...then i told the person i got sch cannot make it...sian 1/16