tmr x_X

damn tired...dunno why...woke up @11am.ate lunch,read papers and tried to read up on chem...tmr ct le....mati la....managed to study till about 4-5pm before my concentration started to break down...wth...slack round till about 7 and watched spiderman...after show i picked up my notes tried to do some last min stuffing but didnt work...jus too damn tired...haix.well...at least its only 3 days...but the feeling of not knowing almost all the questions in the papers is jus...erm...how to say...er...basically i'll feel useless not knowing how to ans almost all of the Qns in the papers...how leh?bo pian...blame it on myself...kk i gonna hit the sack...too TIRED

p.s 15th of july i'm gonna die...its meet the parents.hohoho.i can probably expect a long complain list from my teacherS.think i can get myself out of the mess?we'll see.


oh ya.i miss sports.miss bowling and basketball the most.cant wait for the tpjc bowling open.wahahahahaha.

hands itchy.want to bowl.

what a world.

jus read today's papers...dunno y i jus have this funny feeling...not sure on how to describe the feeling...the papers reported about the aftermath of the tsunami-6 months down the road...it showed pictures of wreckage...pics of starving children...pics of humans tryin to survive...they're humans too...so similar yet so different from us...this made me think about proverty in the world...all those suffering in africa,indonesia etc.then i thought about those flicks i watched where in those third world country,the children all run about either half naked or with tattered & torn clothes...and they run bare footed...the whole place is their playground...with no toys,nor do they have any gadgets like handphones or computers...no tv,no fridge...no xbox,no ps2...some dun even have a proper shelter over their heads...how come the world is like that?then i tot about the terrorists all over the world...most of them are from 3rd world countries...why did they have the type of mindset that we're against them?probably is the environment they are brought up in that moulded that kind of thinking in them...in Singapore we never had to experience hardship...esp our generation of children,teenagers...everything is provided for by our parents and the govt.we dun experience war,tsunami,earthquakes,typhoons etc.the most we get is a couple of temors now and then...thats all...i'm not saying that this is not good(it's v good btw), but jus that how come the people in the third world country dont have wat we hav?it's jus a vicious cycle that goes on and on...that type of environment would jus cont'd to breed more terrorist and kill more people thru wide spread of illness...those who risk their lives and sacrfice their time to try improve conditions deserve our admiration...although they cant change everything,but at least they try...oh ya...then i remembered seeing a pic of a woman trying hard to study...all she had was a book and she was quoted saying"i want to study hard"...seeing that picture made me feel even more guilty...here i have all the things needed to study yet i'm not making full use of them....sigh...i feel that i'm wasting resources...all that crap of being a jc student only sounds great...since the start of term one till now i barely learnt anything...all i did was to play and slacked and spend $$$$...and fail tests...everytime people ask me"hows school?jc life hard?" i didnt know what to answer them...it made me felt only more guilty...and there's my parents...they are trying their best to give me the best of everything...yet here i'm not tryin at all...i know i'm the only one that can help myself...but i jus dunno how to tune my mind to "study mode"...well...actually i dun dare to study hard...cos i scared later study le then i still fail...then like wasted and useless...i seen enough examples of those...putting in so much still get nothing in return...i'm afraid that that would happen to me...sigh...wat to do.

why do humans always have to lose things before they would learn to cherish them....

cherish the things and people around you...before one day you lose them and regret....

oh ya another irritating problem...why do i always feel tired whenever i try to study?i would then fall ZzzZz.sigh.

CT mati

6th day- she crossed over for dinner and watched tv...today she came again to study and use comp and slacked round =)

one more day to CT...now the only thing i fear about CT is that i fail...then ai hoon will look up my mum...if really so i mati le lor...i've only started on a little of chem today...phy and maths are both alien to me...wth lor...now my target is not CT...CT is gone case le...i can foresee myself handing in almost blank scripts-jiao bai juan as they call it...now i target end of yr promos...hope at the end of yr i wont be blogging"promos no hope le...i target for nxt yr the probation test"..lol

jus now when i took my bike out to buy dinner, i tot it fixed itself le...but i pedal for awhile...wth...the old problem came back again...sigh...happy for nothing -_-"

4 in a row...lol

wahahaha...i've been meeting her everyday for the past 4 days...mon was ani...tue she came my house and we watched "tong xin yuan" together...and bought chicken rice from 168 for dinner...then yest went shopping with her @ bugis...walk walk here walk walk there walk walk everywhere...then she bought a new bag for sch @ seiyu...after tat i sent her home...kao...my class guys they all say want to meet for dinner @ 85 in the end nv...sian 0.5 lor...lol..nvm ba nxt time i guess....then today she came over my house...ate lunch and watched "the pacifier" after that jus slacked round for about 3 hrs before she left for home...hehe i koped 2 vcds(pacifier and sahara) from li zhen while our group was over there for project on tue...lol...speaking of pw...sian la...our grp met up but did nothing much lehz...expected much more progress but nothing much we could do ba...kns...my bike still not fixed la...no time to go..lazy to wait there also ar...the uncle say need at least 45 min...sian lor...

CT on mon.how?die?i guess so.ah ma,prepare to meet the infamous ai hoon.

studies are constantly on my mind...just that i have no will to sit down and study...but i have the will to play and have fun...why leh?being constantly on my mind,studies are making me feel guilty...causing me not to totally have fun when play games...WTH -_-"

ani

today is crystal & my ani...lol went suntec to celebrate...met her @ my house here then we took a lomantic bus ride there...wahaha...bought our ticks for "batman begins" before heading to pasta mania for lunch...kaoz...the spicy chicken there is kan hot la...they really mean spicy when they say it man...lol...batman begin was nice...not bad la..quite cool...lol..the cinema had couple seats...hahaz...so nice =) after the movie we went walk walk all round suntec....i surprised her with flowers...wahahaha...she didnt expect it =) then i took her to see sky garden before sending her home...the journey home was kan uncomfortable...cos no seats...sian...lol...come home le then i changed and went to meet them for soccer...played till about 10 + 11 then they all went home...kx ah bush and me sat down talk cock a while more before zhaoing home

vicious cycle

woke up @ 4+pm...great ehz?been sleeping darn late these few days...today gonna slp @ 4+am again...lols...went for dinner with yq,roy &gab lee @ 85..this time was DINNER not SUPPER...hahaz..kk...before that i went to get my hub fixed...kaoz...ex sia..after dinner we went void deck of HDB near by & talk cock...went home @ about 11+.On the way home guess wat?my bike broke down..how nice...lucky it happen when i was near home...the chain got stuck to the cas...wth lor...bo pian had to wheel it home...reached home chatted online and surf the net for magic stuff then watched "child's play" on the preview channel with her...started @ about 3am...ended not long ago...kinda tired...should be goin to ZzZz soon...sigh.i need $$$..i know $$$ is not everything...but still...practically speaking...$$$ is much needed in our lives...and of course...lots of love=)

p.s my bike been giving me lotsa prob lately...hub spoil,back rims got prob,back dur dont match...sian...wat happened to a trusty old pal?time for a new bike?no $$$-


and oh ya...i've noticed how big this world really is...so much in this big ball...endless things to explore...always too many things to do with so little time(and $$$) to spare.

fun day

went for badmintion session with crystal, mich & gaps @ tamp sports hall...they were all late
-_-" anyway we played for 2 hrs...wa long time nv play le play till kns...after our timing was up we went TM for dinner...they took DARN long to decide the place...argh!was kan hungry la!finally they decided on pizza hut...had a filling and delicious meal there...@ a price though...nvm la...once in a while =) after tat we went arcade...played pak and daytona...*claps* for the 1st pls...muhahahaha...then we wanted to play pool @ pavallion but was full house so we walked ALL the way back to e-zone to play pool...play 3 games before leaving...lol...the way we play were stupid...all jokers la we...hahaz..by the time we finish quite late le...so we all went home...took cab with crystal(courtesy of gaps) before taking bus 12 home =) dunno y i suddenly got the urge to play NFS underground 2 now...lol i think will play later before sleeping...and i jus installed AOE 2 again yest...and feel like installing CS also...feel like playing all the old old games now...weird =S lol

axn imh

went out with axn imh..and gaps..lol well...ian didnt go...hmm...we went for a "wonderful" lunch @ jack's place.sian..i dont think my meal was worth the price lor...rather go pizza hut or eat at the economic rice @ katong...lol...after lunch we walked round parkway for awhile before crossing over to asteriods for lan...crystal joined us...but she didnt play...us watch us play...counter terror(mich,gaps & me) rules!!wahahaha...bleahz...crystal then came over my house for awhile...i sent her home and came home ton tv for 4 hrs..watched "you fu","lost" and some old chinese movie(sucks)...mati la...everyday go out how to study sia.sigh.

p.s wa v long nv go out with axn imh & toilet cleaner le...nice gathering today..we talked lotsa crap =) and oh ya...few days nv see her le...today met her me v happy =P

song

a song for her.....

Truely Madly Deeply by savage garden

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do
I will be strong I will be faithful
'cause I'm counting on

A new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning, yeah

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish, SEND IT to heaven then make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the pleasure in the certainty
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of

The highest powers
In lonely hours
the tears devour you

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

Oh can't you see it baby?
Don't have to close your eyes
'Cause it's standing right before you
All that you need will surely come

ooooohh ye-eah

I'll be your dream I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I want to live like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

sleeping spree

jus came back from supper from 201.went with yq,gab & roy..went there for prata and bandung...dun drink the bandung there...sucks...cup looks nice taste like shit...and somemore cost $1.20 sia!after eating went 7-11 to get drinks and titbits then went fitness corner sit down and talk cock...lol...we kan racist lor...hahaz..then we shifted to the sheltered playground cos there was an army of mosquitos @ the fitness corner...@ the playround we talked more cock...then we heard some laughter under HDB block..we tot is a grp of mats..i shouted "shut up" la and they all became quiet...we tot they wanted to come wack us...wanted to zhao...but figured they wouldnt b so smart as to find us..so we stayed on for a little while more before zhaoing home...shared cab with roy...today i slp almost whole day...wasted the damn day la...woke up @ 2pm...went out buy lunch ate then ZzZz again till 6.30...sian -_-"
tomorrow meeting AXN IMH & gaps for lunch...wahahaha better be eating good food..v long nv eat good food le

soccer

went down to play soccer with kx,dennis,yong,bush,mel,shaun & zhi hui...@ 1st played @ street soccer court outside bv...got one gl kia...damn gl...i suey suey on his team..wont pass the ball @ all...ta pai solo kia...sian...once he got the ball mel and me jus stand there and zhou bo...cos he wont pass e ball to us..after tat we rest a while..went for bubble tea break before continuing to play @ siglap cc the bb court...play till lights off...lol...jus as we were about to leave met rayner and e rest...wanted to play bb with them...budden got residents kao bei...so we left for home lor...sian la...wanted to play bb de...bo pian...sigh after one nite of soccer collected 2 bruises and my right thumb nail broke...kaoz got blood..sian 0.5...sigh..miss her...alot

p.s the polygame aunty dua me...say medal of honour will arrive today...but nv..i go there 2 time sia...sian...but not her fault la...i suey...darn suey nowadays..oh ya and my cranks making noise...argh

dream bike

dream bike

sian

slacked round whole day,missing her and thinking of bike,craving for new bike getting stronger by day...spotted trek 8500..damn chio but out of my reach..est cost about 2k...siao rite...i barely have 0.1k now la...i think i will settle for a GT ba...oh ya parents came home jus now le..bought loads of stuff...there goes my rule in the house...lol...hmm..jus realised i been eating more and more these days...getting fatter...better start exercising -_-"

runway cycling photos

RUNWAY CYCLING 2005


-style-

coolz ehz?

flying on wheels

last day of my regime.not sure what time they reaching home tomorrow..yest went over to grandparents'...sigh didnt do much there...slacked round and watched tv...brought work there to do but nv got started..sianz -_-" after coming home packed my stuff and went over to paul's house to ton...lol we play ps and watched tv till 3 before deciding to zZzZz...was afarid that i cant wake up in the morning...but luckily i made it for the runway cycling.

i met rayner, alvin they all @ 168 before setting off..we just missed the flag off when we got there...hmm...must be my cough and flu...had hard breathing...tot i wouldnt make it...but thank god after a while i felt better...the crowd was about the same as last yr's...lots of high end bike mingling with normal bikes...bet'cha there's at least one of each brand present there...looking at all the bikes only make my craving for a gd bike grow stronger..sigh..no $$$ ahhhhh.we did a quick 15 km,rested for a while before goin for round 2...the 6km route...kaoz...the 6k route was like much much shorter manz...after that we went round to look at the static displays and took photos...we were famished by the end of the whole thing...went to some coffeeshop @ bedok reserviour for lunch...after that they went swimming but i came home and ZzZzZz...fried some patties and other finger food and had a "western meal" for dinner...still feeling v slack...lol

1st day of rule

jus came home from supper @ 85 with quan and kx.hmm still not tat tired...actually planned to go east coast after eating..budden they wanted to hit home...sianzz...bo pian so came home...kaoz..come home then alone at home feel empty lehz...if only she can accompany me..lol...she came over today =) before that zhi hui and kx popped by and we watch spongebob...zhi hui watched till ZzzZz and kx was on the phone...haa..dunno how i'm gonna spend tmr...guess i'll pop over to grandmum's...maybe stay over or something...argh...haven start on revision or rather should i call it learning all the topics anew...sianz half...after this weekend must work hard. =X

grandpop's day

today's my grandpop's birthday...went to chin lee restaurant(opp 85 market) for dinner...wow.some dinner man...finger lickin good!lol...could barely move after the meal...had to carry extra weight.

mum & dad's goin on a 4d/3n tour.hehehehehe...i'm king for 4 days...muhahaha.

tired.blog out~

Beat.Black.Burnt.but fun!

After one long week.i'm back and black.My skin burnt until peeling le sia....lol.2 days before ltc camp we had one star kayaking course.fun and boring @ the same time.after the course was a day of rest..not really rest la cos i fell sick(cough.fever.flu)..-_-" rite?temp shot up to 39.2 sia...she came over and look after me(sweet ehz?=P) but was worried i couldnt make it to the ltc...but luckily god bless and i was feeling better the nxt day(tue) and manage to attend ltc.the next 4days and 3 nites passed in a wink.....

day 1 of the camp was 12 hours hiking @ ubin..kaoz...from afternoon till 1am we were supp to carry our goldbar loaded bags and trek round and round the island again and again.halfway thru the hike my headache found me again.argh had to take a rest at base camp..another of my grp member was also sick so we both rest @ base camp for a couple of hours before joining back our grps.hiking at nite was nice...my headache fully recovered and everywhere was dark..we had to use our only source of light-our torches to find our way around the island..after the land exp we were all beat and once back @ base...we spreaded our ground sheets and *boom* zzZZzzzZZzzZZz
day2 of the camp was more relaxed compared to the 1st.we packed up and left ubin and headed to klssc for our sea exp...the sea exp was 14 km of kayaking which lead us from kallang basin to ecp(the light house) and back to the basin again.my partner was jamie...hmm not bad a partner she was...we were mostly infront of the pack...lol dunno why during the one star she keep turning circles...but we had good coordination.we snacked on bread and biscuits at the light house @ ecp...finally we could seat down and have a peaceful meal(we hav been eating on the move for the whole of yest and today morning)after washing up and storing the equipment, we were transported back to school..once back we pitched our tents and had dinner-field cooking...lol...been quite a while since i done tat...after dinner we had to plan for a campfire which would take place on the next day(thu)
day3 -stamimania and the obstacle course stamimina was challenging,same with the obstacle course...we even had to crawl under drains!well,i felt better cos we're back in school!after the obstacle course we had to set up the campfire and the campfire was quite a success,but still not tat good...but we had good team work among the j1s!was glad to see that.
day4-last day.we had situation test and pioneering competition.the situation test was quite tough,but managed to breeze thru...as for the pioneering comp...lol hmm...wasnt so well done but still we showed teamwork.after 4 days of camp...although the j2s were v strict and scolded us alot, but zhi hui and me used to it le...so most of it jus went in and came out instantly.the j1s bonded together more...esp my grp...wahahaha chronos rox!!!we're the best!after the camp went with my grp for dinner @ mac...wa shiok...lol..enjoyed the camp...it was a success...hope OUR ltc would b jus as great if not better.

p.s from the end of the camp till now i've haven been doin much.sleep alot..lol..hmm...today got bowling comp...my team came in 2nd...sigh we're all disappointed...was aiming for 1st...but we beat tjc...wahahahhaha...they came in 3rd...bleahz...oh ya...i've been missing her even more =P