jus read today's papers...dunno y i jus have this funny feeling...not sure on how to describe the feeling...the papers reported about the aftermath of the tsunami-6 months down the road...it showed pictures of wreckage...pics of starving children...pics of humans tryin to survive...they're humans too...so similar yet so different from us...this made me think about proverty in the world...all those suffering in africa,indonesia etc.then i thought about those flicks i watched where in those third world country,the children all run about either half naked or with tattered & torn clothes...and they run bare footed...the whole place is their playground...with no toys,nor do they have any gadgets like handphones or computers...no tv,no fridge...no xbox,no ps2...some dun even have a proper shelter over their heads...how come the world is like that?then i tot about the terrorists all over the world...most of them are from 3rd world countries...why did they have the type of mindset that we're against them?probably is the environment they are brought up in that moulded that kind of thinking in them...in Singapore we never had to experience hardship...esp our generation of children,teenagers...everything is provided for by our parents and the govt.we dun experience war,tsunami,earthquakes,typhoons etc.the most we get is a couple of temors now and then...thats all...i'm not saying that this is not good(it's v good btw), but jus that how come the people in the third world country dont have wat we hav?it's jus a vicious cycle that goes on and on...that type of environment would jus cont'd to breed more terrorist and kill more people thru wide spread of illness...those who risk their lives and sacrfice their time to try improve conditions deserve our admiration...although they cant change everything,but at least they try...oh ya...then i remembered seeing a pic of a woman trying hard to study...all she had was a book and she was quoted saying"i want to study hard"...seeing that picture made me feel even more guilty...here i have all the things needed to study yet i'm not making full use of them....sigh...i feel that i'm wasting resources...all that crap of being a jc student only sounds great...since the start of term one till now i barely learnt anything...all i did was to play and slacked and spend $$$$...and fail tests...everytime people ask me"hows school?jc life hard?" i didnt know what to answer them...it made me felt only more guilty...and there's my parents...they are trying their best to give me the best of everything...yet here i'm not tryin at all...i know i'm the only one that can help myself...but i jus dunno how to tune my mind to "study mode"...well...actually i dun dare to study hard...cos i scared later study le then i still fail...then like wasted and useless...i seen enough examples of those...putting in so much still get nothing in return...i'm afraid that that would happen to me...sigh...wat to do.
why do humans always have to lose things before they would learn to cherish them....
cherish the things and people around you...before one day you lose them and regret....
oh ya another irritating problem...why do i always feel tired whenever i try to study?i would then fall ZzzZz.sigh.
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