waiting

these few days,minutes seemed like hours and hours seemed like days...while days jus seem like months...the dark clouds are still not cleared...i dunno how...but i guess jus pray and hope for the best while nv giving up hope in the process ba...things got better...but then somehow got worst again...then got better again...i dunno wat isst now...better?or worst...these few days i jus dun have the appetite to eat...hungry...but dun feel like eating...winning any match or losing match jus doesnt matter to me anymore...to me there is more impotant thing...something tat i want to hold on to and cherish...something tat is more impt than anything else...something tat would make my life colourful again...my world now is jus black and white...today a ray of light shone thru the dark clouds...giving me hope...jus hope that this ray of light would not be overshadowed by the darkclouds like the previous one.i think ppl dun really talk to me anymore...cos of my dao and sad face ba...i say sorrie...i'm tryin to be more cheerful now...or at least appear more cheerful...and to those who asked about me...thank u for your concern...really help lots...but something else would help more...i pray tat the lord would help me...i believe in miracles...and i dun care about wat gossip people are talking about...i'll prove the gossips untrue...although i almost broke down...but i will hang in there...you too...jus hope everything will turn out fine...and tat the light will over take the dark clouds...