worst

this few days i've been trying to drown my pain....goin out with friends and watching anime and sleeping seem to help...but only for a short period of time....whenever i'm alone...i would jus think...and...it's heart breaking...why isst like tat...how come...i've no chance at all...is this a test?or am i jus being a fool...i dunno wat to do...all my mind tells me to do is to cont'd waiting and keep trying...lucky i got friends....although they might not be able to help to tat extend...but they are still able to accompany me...i jus dun wanna be alone...i miss her...so much...i dunno if i still stand a chance....or i'm jus a fool waiting...why isst so cold....why...