31st oct 2006

1 more day. i'm feeling so sians now. although i need all the time i can gather, but i just have no mood to study.now the haze's almost gone i've got nothing to blame 'cept for myself.sighhhh. i want to blog but i don't know what to blog about. this is heading nowhere and i feel 'undead' as paul would describe it.lol

felt so shiok after that shouting and kicking session today. but that effect barely lasted 2 hours. i feel lucky and thankful that i'm given an opportunity to study, unlike the poor kids in those proverty stricken 3rd world countries. maybe i just didnt cherish that chance till it was too late. damn.human nature sucks.we'll always learn to cherish something only when it's gone. the more i read the more contradictions i discover. sometimes, ignorance is really bliss.

i'm missing out on competitions that my dad has been participating in. !@$#@!$@$^$%%#$% i'm also missing out on free $$ by doing paid surveys. omg. can you imagine it? u get money for talking and u just cant betray your conscience to go do it? ahhhhhhh.wth

nvm. it shall be over in 17 days!

i feel like i'm heading into a modern day combat armed with nothing else but a bayonet

29th oct 2006

one more day closer to freedom. yay!

so exciting!

one more day closer to d-day. boo!

so scary!

i'm very very worried for my all my subjects esp physics.sigh

common peeps.we can do this.

28th oct 2006

5 days before d-day.everyone's busy with preparations for it. 20 days before we are free again.
met rayner at the coffeeshop just now and he told me about his friend getting F all the way for chem till prelim where he got an E.guess wad.in the end he got and A for A levels.sick. i shall try to attempt that feat! although most prob i will fail horribly.haa.then again, he's in mj and i'm in tpj.thats the diff i guess.

i feel so SIANS.i hate this feeling.yes.HATE it.

what's gonna be of me?

dun feel good

i dun feel good.head's spinning alittle and i fucking wasted so much time slacking.hmm..guess i'm running out of stamina..maybe i started too late

nvm.must carry on!

I see in your eyes the same fear that would take the heart of me.

A day may come when the courage of Men fails, when we forsake our friends and break all bonds of fellowship.

But it is not this day.

An hour of wolves and shattered shields when the Age of Men comes crashing down,

but it is not this day!

This day, we fight!

(extracted from LOTR ROTK)

it feels like we are goin to war.haa

tpjc.net-hulk

omg how lame can my school's IT department get.hulk welcoming me back to the portal?haa! but i have to admit its quite refreshing to see something like tat for a change. it comes with paris hilton,some chinese singer and a retro guy too.cool =D

anyway, happy birthday nicholas! i'll join you in the legal club.SOON.haa

funny thai ad

a couple of videos for destressing =]

farewell assembly

the farewell assembly today was nice.although it's saddening there was only 1 dedication to our class..haa.maybe we just didnt make a lasting impression enough on our teachers reached home and just listen to 'graduation' and browsed thru photo after photo..i'm gonna miss everything and everyone*tears* lol

photo credits: ahboy

guys AND girls =]

babi jui pang!

we took down the signboard.muahaha!
justin spoiler

fly!

our nicest teacher(cos he made a dedication.haa)



touching



queen rain

Graduation
by Vitamin C


And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever


So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la, la…
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la…
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

i will always miss:

beer drinking at fishermen

zi char dinner at kopitiams

the outings to ecp

excursion @ geylang..haa

charles acting gay

tak shing's 'auhhhhhh'

silly games in class with shirnnie and cheryl

gossiping about people!

dragonboat training

winning kayaking(we're the best right hb?=D)

ah boy's war crys

eugene's left and right(not to mention fast) walking

my clone

xin yuan's enthu-ness

gab and hb's neverending squabble

sheng sheng sheng babi jui pang

hubert's power grades

justin and his legendary 'neng ki qui' stories

russell for not getting mad at us making fun of him

and many more other things i didnt mention here...

these memories will be kept with me.forever.

to all 05S15ers- you guys rocked my life =]

lost 3

lost is back!season 3 is packed with more mysteries,plot and suspense! wahahaha. cant wait for the next episode to be released.

wad am i doin watching lost? i should be studying

well i'm tryin really hard but the progress is just too slow. i can remember other stupid things but i cant remember stuff that are related to studies. if only there's a program of some sort that can disk clean up and defragment my brain.haa!

dun feel well these few days. exam stress maybe.lol

tmr's the last day of school, somehow i feel sad..guess i'm already used to this routine of going to school and seeing familar faces. well, i know of friends that are so happy that they dun have to go to school anymore, but its like we spent like 1 years and 10 months together already?really gonna miss all my classmates, esp some of them =]

when the going gets tough,i'm gonna be tougher

i hope...

wishes

do wishes really come true?

if they do, i'll really like my 3 wishes...

1.

2.

3.

cheryl's party

cheryl's party was a blast! everything was nice =]
got chance must go visit her again..wahaha. shall upload the photos some other time when i get 'em

next time i shall organise a party and invite all my friends to it too. it'll be really fun!

omg i didnt know why in the world did i order hokkien mee just now.shouldnt have taken that chewing gum too..really feel like puking now.haa..maybe i'm just feeling too tired. sians la.tmr sure wake up damn late and i wont be able to utilise the whole full day.lol..blame myself for staying out till such hours.

i feel really really really horrible now.i really dunno wad to do


help

nick's early birthday celebration

the birthday boy. though early by weeks.haa

birthday boy & me

star-crossed---~

a.x.n

where's the birthday boy?!

look at her eyes.she's evil.haa!

happy gays

it sucks when your birthday's during exams. bleah.

think i goin crazy liao sia..haha

hahaha

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

muhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

isn't it good to have nothing?that way you'll have nothing to lose.no?

tpjc.net

my school is just so fucked up, of all times the school portal had to be down now..wtf. what's more, it's already been down for SO many days. since the time when they shut it down because of the scandal thingy, the portal has been down everynow and then. whats the IT department doing man..i need access to some of the stuff there.and i'm sure there are many students that need to use the portal too.sigh

happy birthday to ah boy and kang kang! =]

fat

my friend told me that i've put on weight.

oh dear.lol.actually it's expected la. havent been exercising for the past..3 months? cant wait for As to be over..then i can chiong exercise liao.wahahaha!
i have a love hate relationship with my weekends.somehow i will just waste my weekends away *yawns* relaxing yet irritating at the same time. argh.

btw, found this game on the net.

www.notpron.com

dun worry.it's not porn.haa..found it to be v engaging and mysterious. the aim of the game is to advance to the next page. until u reach the screen with 'the end'. the interesting part is that the path to the next page is not so direct. you've gotta solve clues given, normally subtle clues. nothing is direct in this game. i'm hooked on it liao. might not appeal to all though =]



the greatest magician on earth

a chipped vase is still prefect if you look at it from a different angle

arrogance

the arrogrance of human nature is just overbearing at times.

dont you agree?

my poor bag was 'curried' by the prata stall's curry today. it stinks. so ya, gonna get it washed and use my sling bag tmr.lol

i think it's ridiculous to take the lift when you stay on the 2nd floor. yes yes i agree that those people did pay for the lift upgrading, but wont it be faster and easier to just climb up TWO flight of stairs?maybe you would argue that they are old and all. but that's just an excuse? they can walk perfectly fine, not as if they're lame like me. climbing up TWO flight of stairs would certainly contribute to their weekly exercise regime and keep their system running smoother, considering their age. unless they are carying something heavy( which they are not most of the time), they should just take the stairs la.

i DISLIKE (hate's too strong a word.lol) it esp when they pressed for the lift, decided that it was too long a waiting time for them, then they take the stairs, leaving no one getting in when the lift door opens. usually with poor me inside. this applies to those yalam kids staying on the fifth floor too. for some reason or another, these kids LOVE to press for the lift on the fifth floor,and then run away, leaving no one getting in when the lift door opens. once again, with poor me inside.it's better now, considering they used to press from 5th floor down. meaning 5th,4th,3rd and 2nd floors. gets on my nerves.haa

scars will always be with you to remind you of how you got them

male female version

hmm..i find it quite amazing that i suddenly discover that there's someone that feel the feelings that i feel and been thru some of the things i've been thru, although not totally the same but up to quite large an extent. it's almost like a female version of me..lol

and then there's the male version too.his behaviour is somewhat similar to me although we have our differences, but our stats are somewhat similar.haa

was it planned that i should meet these 2 people in my life?or isst jus pure coincidence?Mmm..intriguing it is.

does god have a plan?

骑着脚车...

...走遍天下

maybe that's wad i will do 6,7 years down the road, explore the world on wheels.haa...

we'll see how it goes ba..i've got other ideas in mind too

jus now saw a family cycling, probably going for their weekly family ride. how i envy them man. just find it v cool to see a whole family cycling together! next time my family shall be like tat =D

08 oct 2006

omg cant believe i jus woke up at like 2.30?lol

i met mayfong and kai xiang and michelle. kai xiang was planning his birthday party and we were all sitting on top of sheares bridge..haa.then i attended a rehersal for ndp 2007 and i was there for some reason together with all the local actors and actresses.the next moment i was in ancient china, where there was horse ridding and swordsmen and those horsedrawn carriages. we were fighting some monster if i remembered correctly..

then i woke up and realised it was all just a dream.lol

tat was really some weird weird dream. =S


btw the psi's back to normal with a reading of 29 currently. sians =D

07 dec 2006

the haze problem's not showing any sign of getting better. some of my friends are hoping that it will get worse. that way there will be no school. haa

another song to recommend too all you peeps. 'the world is black' by Good Charlotte
the lyrics are meaningful(again..lol)

anyway below's the mv for the song.couldnt find the original mv..only managed to find mv created by other people. quite nice too la if you played the games tat is.lol



this one is made using the cinematics from kingdom hearts




this one was made using the cinematics from finalfantasy 9



Title: The world is black
Artist: Good Charlotte


Turn on channel seven at a quarter to eight
You see the same damn thing it's just a different day and
No one really knows why this is happening
But it's happening
And everywhere you go it's just a different place
You get the same dark feeling
See the same sad faces
No one really cares that this is happening

We come into this world
And we all are the same
In that moment there's no one to blame

But the world is black
And hearts are cold
And there's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back
It won't be the same
Forever changed
By the things we've seen, seen

Living in this place it's always been this way
There's no one doing nothing so there's nothing changed
And I can't live when this world just keeps dying
It's dying
People always tell me this is part of the plan
That God's got everybody in His hands
But I can only pray that God is listening
Is He listening?

We're living in this world
Growing colder everyday
Nothing can stay perfect now I see

But the world is black
And hearts are cold
And there's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back
It won't be the same
Forever changed
By the things we've seen, seen, seen

We come into this world
And we all are the same
And in that moment there's no one to blame
But we're living in this world
Growing colder everyday
Nothing can stay perfect now I see

The world is black
And hearts are cold
There's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back
(We can't go back)
It won't be the same
(It won't be the same)
Forever changed
(What will ever change)
By the things we've seen, seen, seen

Turn on channel seven at a quarter to eight
You see the same damn thing it's just a different day
And no one really knows why this is happening

06 oct 2006

today was the furthest i cycled for the past dunno-how-many-months!cycled to siglap center and met up with kx and nic for dinner.we talked lotsa cock..jus like the old times man.haa. on the way back the haze was freaking bad man. visibility was down to 200m? the burnt smell was horrible and it seemed to get worst by the min. seriously la..i dunno to blame the farmers or pity them. they are forced into clearing land this way as other alternatives are just too ex for them, but the situation is causing their neighbours much trouble.

anyways went for basketball with cx and his friends in the afternoon..supposed to be studying man..but felt bad turning him down. i thought i might feel better after the game, but sad to say i only felt worst. not that my basketball skills were great to start with, but my fitness dropped hell lot. ran around for like 10 mins? and i was panting as though i cycled the whole of costal.wtf. think if i go do other sports i will also suck.haiz.just feel that i can't do anything right or well?wtf


i'm at fault for the state i'm in now. lesson learned. move on. dun make the same mistake.




ya right.easier said than done.this world is just fucked up.

haze.nuclear crisis.terrorism.natural disasters.environment degradation
exams.stress.competition.backstabbing.betrayal.

the world might just end soon man.

i seriously feel that exams change do people. and when u tell people that they have changed because of exams they will just deny it. human relations appear simple but underneath that layer of simplicity lies a complex structure that few can comprehend. there are just so many things in this world that contradict themselves. sometimes i just really dunno who to believe or who to trust or what is right or what is wrong. people might just tell u to follow your heart and believe in wad u believe in. but when something u believed so much in is proven wrong, u just find it hard to regain the confidence to believe in anything again.

face it humans.we are all superficial.including me.


oh well.my headache is acting up again.better go get some rest before it evolves into something really bad

5th oct 2006

jie kou by jay chou. the lyrics are meaningful man..lol

another boring day. *yawns* my life's turned into a boring storybook with pages filled with dull colours.

then again, life's full of surprises!

but then again,i'm not counting on it.bleh

ironies of life.

4th oct 2006

memories. they can either suck or rock. maybe at this point of time mine suck 'cos all they do is to remind me of things i rather not think of now.to make things worst, some stuff are adding fuel to fire.

hai...

i can't seem to remember things that i have studied.hmm maybe that's the result of eating too much unhealthy food and the denial of fish in my diet.

hai...

oh well. thou shall remain optimistic and pray that a miracle happens. and i shalln't sigh anymore.

hai...


lol. below's a nice song intro-ed to me by xin yuan. kudos! johnathan picked it as one of his songs for idol finals.he delievered it ok but i think the original version by Dreamz FM is nicer.haa




Should I Stay
By Dreamz FM

Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish you���d been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel���s heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin��� proof of what love is about

It���s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It���s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don���t know (I don���t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Eventhough I���m down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You���re still in my thoughts

It���s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It���s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don���t know (I don���t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

Oooohh���should I stay?
Should I go?

It���s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It���s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don���t know (I don���t know)
I wanna know
Should I stay or should I���?

This time its done
It���ll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it���s sad just the same

I guess the truth
Doesn���t matter somehow
But you were livin��� proof of what love is about���

03 sep 2006

been a month since i last blogged. it has been a tough one month, am i stronger now? i dunno. all i know is this blog is rotting away. i dun even think anyone reads it anymore.lol. anyway i think i'm not gonna update as often till after As ba, so dun miss me ya?wahaha

anyways had a change of skin. yea i know this is not exactly my ideal skin but i dun have the time to go personalize a skin right now,so this is kinda a temp skin. after As i plan to do a nice nice one =] speaking of after As, i have loads of stuff on my to-do-list! muhahaha

sadly i dun have the capital to do so, so i guess i have to stick with those stuff that doesn't require money.

totally screwed my prelims. i didnt know why did i take up physics in the first place..i realised i cant do physics for nuts man. regretting now isnt gonna help much, jus pray before goin to bed everynight. =P

anyway really really want to thank all my friends who helped me pick myself up..u all rock! =]



p.s lazy to put up the links but the tagboard is still running =]